My name is Tammy. I am a 39 year old, mother of 2 girls both with special needs. I work full time as a RPN at my local hospital. I have ADD/ADHD, anxiety and depression. This is my search on a somewhat daily basis of finding me. Some where over the last 12 or so years of being a mom and a nurse and a wife and a housekeeper and a fixer of all things big and small. I have lost what was me.Now i am left feeling deflated used and unvalidated.This is me finding me .
words to live by
Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those matter don't mind.
- Dr Seuss
- Dr Seuss
Wednesday, 4 January 2012
a day of thinking
As i have spent the day watching my kids and cleaning and shopping a few things have occured to me.First off went off in a rant inside my head (thanks ADD) on how much i dislike diets, not just because i can't follow through with one but because they are so not healthy. I feel if someone really wants to lose weight the 2 "diets"that really are not diets at all but just a different way of eating. These 2 diets are clean eating (Tosca Reno ..my hero ) or weight watchers . Clean eating for the person who doesn't want to have anything to do with a diet but wants to eat healthy. Weight watchers for the person who needs to those guidelines not that clean eating doesn't have rules or guidelines but its just a different way of eating. So that was the rant for today with eating . The other thing that made me think today was something that made me give myself a pat on my back. My daughter Jessica who has down syndrome, was reading and spelled her full name now i can not take all the credit for that but i feel that having her put into the LLS (learning and life skills) class this year has given her a new lease on life. I really struggled with that decision because her doctor had said to me once in a random conversation that i should never let her go into a special needs class. However, we have also decided to start her on ADD/ADHD medication now the combination of these things combined have increased her ability to learn to the point of her going from being able to spell her first name only last year and only counting to 10 to counting to 30 and being able to spell her first and last name and being able to sit through a lesson at school which was just not done last year at all so I my decision was the right one for Jess and it makes me happy when she reads a story or spells her name that i made that decision and gave her the opportunity to succeed instead of let her just get by with her IEP so today i feel pretty good about that.Now just so everyone know Jess is still integrated into a regular class room she spends 50% of her day in the LLS class.
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This is fantastic!!!! XOXXOXO
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