I feel a rant coming on !!!!!!!!

I feel so angry so used and unvalidated right now that my heart has sunk to my bowels. Today I have endured vomiting and diarrhoea, i have done laundry cook a soup from scratch done 3 loads of dishes in the dishwasher plus dishes by hand as well as cooked a separate meal for the children. Not to mention i was up really early and didn't sleep well. Kacie and Jessica were at each others throats all day and i have had about enough. My husband comes home from work and has a shower and parks his ass on the bed puts on headphones and ignores the family. This does nothing but piss me off, like really when i come home from a 12 hour day the first thing i do is start my other job of being mom while he runs off and hides. This is a most unfair action and very unbecoming of a life mate, the saddest part of all is this is consistent so what do i do how do i correct this how do i become validated in my life, how do i find me when i am consistently brought down to the level of begging for validation. Is it even validation that i am looking for ?. I know i need to find me but it i seems so daunting trying to find something that i am not sure if it exists anymore that light is distant and dim..... perhaps that's the problem i allow this bull shit because me as i know me no longer exists and a reconstruction is in order. So what do i do well for now i continue to carry on as per usual.I am just at a loss of what to do, i am tired of talking yelling and bending over backwards to be stomped on daily.... Well its up to me now

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