Well here I am again, I have totally tried to stay focused however once again I failed. I have had a few ruff patches and I believe that when you suffer with depression and other things as well ruff patches are to be expected. I was having a lot of anxiety and feeling overwhelmed to say the least  living with ADD/ADHD and OCD creates such a conflict within your head that some days it is impossible to be normal in any way. I have been keeping a eye on my second favorite Blogger moneysavingmom she has some wonderful ideas to stay focused and on budget in all aspects of life. So from here I am going to try to start a new. I have been going to yoga and I am going go start back go kick boxing again. I need to start being selfish it seems so simple but it is the hardest thing to do ever. I would have never thought that putting myself first would be hard but it is. I will keep trying but some days it is hard to be me!  I met with Jessica's caseworker from community living I told her that someday my kids test my abilities as a parent they make me feel like I don't know what I am doing. I laugh when I say it but it's the truth!  Thanks for listening I am off to bed now work in the am (yuck) but I will try to make blogging a daily thing but I won't hold my breath I am just going to take this one day at a time