New Beginnings

  Tomorrow marks a special day for me. Its the day that I begin the journey of finding myself. Some where some how it who i was or am . I have been told how to feel or not to feel, when to let things bother me and when they shouldn't. I have been going to therapy for about 7 months now , in that time i have been diagonsed with ADD/ADHD and am now taking medication for this life long struggle in my life. Finally i can consenrate long enough to empty a laundry basket, for the first time in my life i have been able to empty out a laundry basket without getting side tracked and creating 6 other projects and then at the end of the day I have 6 projects and a full laundry basket unfinished and i am completely spent. It is a daily thing i deal with along with my  2 children who I have passed on my lovely gift of ADD/ADHD . My oldest child has asperger's syndrome and my other daughter has Down Syndrome. Why was I given these gifts well i don't know, God only gives you what you can handle so therefore I can do this, as for the actual purpose that is something i will search for on this journey. As I have mentioned earlier i have ADD/ADHD, I also suffer from depression and some post childhood traumas that have left me scared and hurt and full of anxiety and fear. December 19,2011 will make the end of that fear no longer will i be afraid to live my life. Look out world here I come , this is gonna be one hell of a ride